There are times I really, really hate life, my life. My part time job has now turned into a full time plus overtime job. I work nine hours plus, five days a week. The exhaustion is returning. The anger. The joyless existence I had when I worked at the hospital. I have no life again.
I've been struggling to complete a new post for this blog, I have a sewing project on hold, I have housework piling up...My brain has gone numb. It is not worth those big paychecks I get.
Today I thought I escaped the mandatory overtime since I did not get the phone call to carry on. But NO!!!! they called me late and said to carry on.... So I don't get to snooze a bit more which my body is crying for. Rest, lady, rest. Seems like the only real rest I will get is in the grave. I can see my headstone now. Here lies a lady who made big paychecks but wasted her life.
You big cry baby. Pardon me a moment...Waaaah!! Cathartic.
I gave up coffee this weekend. Not the usual withdrawals for me. No sir. Not one caffeine headache in sight. Instead, I was exhausted. I took a four hour nap on Saturday and then slept Sunday away. Since adrenal fatigue is a chronic problem with me, I thought the detox would strengthen them.
When you consume caffeine, the drug begins its effects by initiating uncontrolled neuron firing in your brain, according to Stephen Cherniske in his book, Caffeine Blues. This excess neuron activity triggers your pituitary gland to secrete a hormone that tells your adrenal glands to produce adrenaline. I don't handle stress well and here I was stressing myself--daily! Granted it was only two cups of coffee a day and perhaps an occasional soda within the month, but it was enough. Bye bye caffeine. Wait and see, wait and see.
Sleep is a symptom of caffeine deprivation.
